Best of 2018 + My Intentions for the New Year

For every high there is a low, and for every low there is a high. I would say those words sum up this last year. 2018 was definitely an emotional year but I am beyond grateful for it. I would say it was a year I truly needed to experience in order to continue to grow.

Like most people, I have been doing a lot of reflecting on the last 365 days. I’ve meditated on it, journaled about it, and even cried over it. Each year I go into January with very high expectations. For someone like me, who is very Type A, it’s hard not to. It’s a new year, a new month, and everything feels so fresh and clean…how could you not?!

But as I reflected on what 2018 brought me I quickly realized no year will ever be perfect no matter how hard we strive for it to be. The only thing we can do is enter each new year with all the love that our hearts can hold. Because when we start a new chapter it is important to hold that space for ourselves (and others) to keep growing.

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So, when you look back at the years, whether it’s 2015 or the previous year you had, remember that nothing is linear. You can’t have the good without a little bit of the bad. There’s no light without darkness. Cherish the highs to carry you through your lows and appreciate the lows to fully embrace the highs.

With that said, this year I am throwing out any expectations I have. I want to go into 2019 feeling light and full of love, not anxiety and dread. I don’t believe in New Year’s resolutions, but I do believe in setting clear goals and intentions for yourself to manifest in the many months to come.

 

Here are mine-

Meditate and journal every day. This is something I have done for so long but about halfway through the year I neglected this practice. It wasn’t something I intentionally did but kind of fell out of. However, this last month I have picked it back up again and I must say I hope I don’t lose the habit again. I also want to start incorporating it into my brand again!

Stop feeling guilty for taking time off. This one is very important, especially because I am going to be a new mom and that comes first! The first half of my pregnancy I struggled with this a lot and felt like a failure for taking a nap instead of blogging or setting aside my coaching business to embrace this stage of my life. I’ve gotten a lot better at it but I want to be mindful of it going into the New Year.

Take each day as it comes. Continuing the theme of letting go of expectations, I want to fully embrace each day for what it is and not let the past or future dictate my present.

Continue to grow my business in creative ways. Although I will be a new mom and quite literally have my hands full, I don’t want to give up on my business and career goals! I have a lot of ideals and inspiration brewing in my mind that I want to bring to Devon Jade. From essential oils, coaching, and meditations, I have so much content I want to share! Also, if you have any input or suggestions, I’m all ears!

Never stop taking care of ME. This intention is really important and sacred to me. As I get closer and closer to becoming a new mom I want to make sure I am still carving out time to take care of me. I can’t be a good mom if I don’t take care of myself first!

 

Are you someone who sets intentions for the New Year? I’d love to hear some of yours! Comment below or share them with me on Instagram!

 

Before I end this post, I thought it would be fun to also share some of my favorite (and not so favorite) moments of 2018.

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Ringing in the New Year and getting a New Year’s kiss from my (at the time) almost hubby! We have celebrated the last three New Years together and each one just gets better and better! However, this year he is working so you can find me kissing my dogs and loving on my baby bump!

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My birthday is in January so celebrating that is always a blast. This last year Mark took me to a shooting range where I shot my first gun. It was traumatic, I cried, and will never go back.

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On March 16, 2018 we got married!!! As you know, Mark and I ditched our original wedding plans and got married in Chicago instead (our absolute favorite city). We had a few friends there and kept it extremely intimate. It was hands down the best day of the year and we had SO much fun. If I could, I would do it over and over and over again. To read more about it check out my blog post, Why My Husband and I Cancelled Our Wedding.

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The end of April and month of May were an emotional time for us. Mid-April we found out I was pregnant only to lose the baby a week and a half later. I would say this was the beginning of the emotional roller coaster we were on. Heading into May Mark lost a colleague. His mom was also getting surgery and my grandmother had a bad fall which caused her to now live in an assisted living program. Despite all of the hardship, the end of the month got sweeter when we started creating out dream backyard and found out I was pregnant (again)!!!

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Immediately after that, in June, I had another pregnancy scare. I thought I was having another miscarriage only to find out I actually had a hemorrhage in my uterus. However, we got our first glimpse at our little baby peanut!

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July was a big month for us and definitely a high. We announced we were pregnant, Mark got promoted, we got a puppy, and bought a car!!!

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We then got to meet our best friend’s beautiful baby girl and witness her mom adopt her! This was so special to be a part of and I am so happy for them!

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September was yet again another exciting month. It was Mark’s birthday, I was at the half way point of my pregnancy and we found out our little peanut was a BOY! I wrote blog posts sharing my 20-week update, I’m Halfway Through My Pregnancy! A 20 Week Update and Baby Devine’s Big Gender Reveal! if you want to check those out!

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October and November were crazy months as we drove home to the East Coast for three weeks and then came home and celebrated Thanksgiving. While we were home I got to witness my childhood BFF find her dream wedding dress as well as stand beside my other friend as she married her best friend!

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Rounding out the year with our first Christmas as Mr. and Mrs. and our last holiday just the two of us!

 

2018 was quite the year and I’m feeling so grateful looking back at all of the memories made. I am excited for this new year as our baby boy will be making his arrival sooner rather than later! 2019 you are looking pretty damn fine!

 

Share your thoughts with me! Comment below or head to my Instagram page (@iamdevonjade)!

XOXO,

D.J.

I Had A Miscarriage: This is My Story

You know those vivid memories that stick in your head and make you feel like they just happened yesterday whenever you think about them? Well, this is one of those memories.

Ever since I was a little girl, playing with baby dolls, I knew I always wanted to grow up, get married, and have children. Back then, and even up until just a few years ago, I was very naïve and ignorant to the topic of pregnancy. But no matter how ignorant to the topic I was, I knew I was meant to be a mom one day.

When I met Mark we obviously hit it off right away, so well that having children was probably one of the first topics we talked about, aside from marriage. While we got married prior to getting pregnant, I’m quite surprised we didn’t end up having babies before we got married- that’s just how badly we wanted to start a family.

We got married on March 16, 2018 in Chicago. Quickly after we got back from our favorite city Mark was leaving for a week, so we decided we he came back we would start trying for a baby. To our surprise, we got pregnant on the first try and I found out relatively early, about 4 weeks pregnant.

I remember this day so well. It was April and finally warming up here in Montana. It was also a Friday and the sun was shining. I was feeling “off” that whole week but didn’t think anything of it. I took a pregnancy test that Wednesday and it was negative, so when I woke up Friday feeling grossed out by my breakfast, I thought there was no way I could be pregnant. But to the bathroom I went to take yet another pregnancy test.

On that test I saw the faintest double blue line you could ever see. And I mean it was faint. I was convinced I was going crazy and making things up. So, I dug through the trash to find my test from Wednesday (yes, you do crazy things when you are trying to get pregnant lol). To my surprise there it was again, the tiniest double blue line. Was I actually pregnant or just absolutely insane?! I had to take a third test!!!!!

I must add our toilet decided to stop working this day and wouldn’t flush. It was practically overflowing so taking another test wasn’t in the cards for me at the moment. I also had a coaching call that morning, so I couldn’t even run out and get another test.

Luckily enough, after my coaching call was over my friend called me to see if I wanted to go to the gym. I was planning on going anyways but I also had a bigger dilemma I was trying to solve. Nervous and excited, I told her everything- from my possible positive pregnancy to my broken toilet. Like any good friend would do she said “okay, let’s go buy you another test and we will take it at the gym.”

I bought another test, peed on the damn stick at the gym, and guess what…another TINY, faint double blue line.

Trying to put it out of my head (HA! Yeah, right!), we worked out and decided after we were finished at the gym we would go to Target (duh) and get a better test (shout out to Clear Blue digital lol).

So, there I am in the Target bathroom peeing on a stick. By this time, I am a pro at this and didn’t care I was in a public restroom waiting to find out the results of my future. (Side note: Mark is at work while this is going on, so he has no clue, lol).

I shove the test in my purse and hurry back to the car waiting to grab the test back out of my purse to read the results.

 

“Pregnant”

 

I immediately screamed the words to my friend and we both started crying. I was really pregnant!!! My intuition was right!

Now the fun part, how to tell my husband. I really wanted to surprise him and get his reaction on camera. Easy enough, I can tell him I need him for my blog and he’ll agree to help me out.

Once he got home I told him I really needed him to take pictures with me for my blog post I was writing about our wedding. He believed me and agreed to take some photos. Little did he know it was a video and on the count of three I pulled out my positive pregnancy test and shouted, “I’m pregnant!!!”.

His reaction…PRICELESS.

For that whole weekend we kept this awesome secret to ourselves and soaked up the greatest news we could have ever asked for. I couldn’t believe we were having a baby! It happened so fast!

That Monday we went to the doctor to confirm my pregnancy and start the process of getting prenatal care. Eager parents-to-be we had so many questions and were just SO excited!

I was about 4 weeks along and our little bean’s due date was December 26, 2018. A CHRISTMAS BABY!

This made me a little nervous because I couldn’t picture myself giving birth on Christmas, but I knew I would be happy if that’s what it came down to.

We went on that week still on cloud nine and me waiting for symptoms to start appearing. Nothing changed though. Instead I felt more and more like my normal self. I had energy and was working out as normal, no sickness, nothing. In fact, I remember saying to Mark that whole week “I don’t even feel pregnant!” while preparing myself for what was to come.

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Sunday rolled around, and Mark was at work, I was at home cleaning. I went to the bathroom and noticed I was bleeding. In a panic I called Mark hysterical. He rushed home right away. We of course googled a whole lot and everything we read said bleeding was normal in the early stages of pregnancy. So, we decided if I was still bleeding tomorrow we would go into the doctor.

Sunday passed, and Monday morning came. I was getting ready for work when all of a sudden, I got the worst cramps I have ever felt. I truly thought I was getting my period, so I ran to the bathroom only to find nothing out of the ordinary.

Again, I called Mark and we decided we should go to the doctor. When we got there, we told the nurse and doctor what was going on and how we were probably just over worried first-time parents-to-be. They took my blood, did multiple tests including an ultrasound and trans-vaginal ultrasound, and asked me several questions.

It was a lot of waiting and wondering. Once the doctor came back into the room he said, “Your HCG count is at a 12 and there’s no sign of a fetal sac.” And my naïve self replied back with, “Okay, well I’m still early so that’s normal, right?”

If you know anything about pregnancy you know that this was NOT normal. I was convinced I had time to increase my HCG levels and develop a fetal sac since I was only just about 6 weeks along.

He even asked me again if I was actually pregnant to which I was responded “yes, I had it confirmed on the military base”. At this point there was no sign of pregnancy and he probably thought I was insane.

He then went on to explain things that I can’t recall because I was trying to put this all into words and understand what was happening. He finally said, “I’m sorry it didn’t work out this time, but I don’t see anything showing it won’t work out next time.”

 

Right then and there it hit me.

I was losing the baby. I was pregnant and now I am not. What do I do?

I couldn’t stop ugly crying.

 

The nurse then came in and explained how I was going to get what felt like the worst period of my life. It was going to be painful and I was probably going to bleed a lot. To make sure I was stocked up on pads because I couldn’t wear tampons. And that if the bleeding didn’t stop in 7-10 days I would have to come back for and D&C.

 

What?!

Was this real life? Was this actually happening to ME?!

It was. It did.

 

I remember I spent that whole day sobbing on and off. Mark feeling helpless because he couldn’t understand the physical or emotional pain I was going through. The physical pain was what lasted the longest that week. Of course, it still hurts a little, especially this month, but I now have a beautiful, healthy rainbow baby on his way.

Most days I don’t know how to put into words my feelings or emotions in relation to this experience and I don’t think it’s anything I could ever easily explain to someone. But I wouldn’t wish it upon my worst enemy that’s for sure.

I hope sharing my story has shed a light on this topic of pregnancy loss and that it helps any other women who are going through something similar. Every women, story, and pregnancy is sooo different. So personal. Don’t ever think yours is any less than someone else’s.

If you ever have questions or just want someone to talk to, please don’t hesitate to send me a message.

 

Share your thoughts with me! Comment below or head to my Instagram page (@iamdevonjade)!

XOXO,

D.J.

My 30-week Pregnancy Update

I cannot believe I am sitting down to write a 30-week pregnancy update. How do I have just ten more weeks left of this journey?! It is truly mind boggling yet so exciting and I want to share it all with you!

In this blog post I am going to give ya’ll an update on my pregnancy at this point in time, including the things I can’t live without, struggles, and my overall thoughts that are currently racing through my head.

Like I said, I can’t believe the time is here. The count down until Baby Devine makes his arrival. I know I have said it a million and one times already but I honestly don’t know how else to put it into words. To be honest, I’m still trying to process the fact that I’m in my third trimester!

In my blog post discussing my second trimester I gave you a run down on my experience in those short weeks and what pregnancy looked like for me during that time. (To see a further look into my second trimester, check out my previous blog post). But today I want to take the time and share my heart with you and say some things that don’t get said too often.

My 30-week Pregnancy Update

To watch the video of my 30-week update, click here!

Pregnancy has been so great to me. I am so fortunate to have no complications or anything major go wrong. I have dreamt of this moment since I was a little girl playing with baby dolls and I am in disbelief it is here.

Having kids was something Mark, my husband, and I always knew we wanted. Right off the bat it was a topic that came up often, even way before the marriage talk. Looking back, I don’t know why we didn’t have kids before getting married because we had serious baby fever for a good year and a half, lol. When it came time to actually start trying I was prepared for the worst. I was ready for the crappy first trimester, to have my head in the toilet, to gain all this weight, and to cry at absolutely nothing. I did everything in my power to promote and strengthen my fertility. I was ready.

We got pregnant literally on the first try. And at 6 weeks I lost the baby.

At that time, I felt defeated. Someone who wanted kids so badly, who did everything “right”, and felt so ready for motherhood was now questioning everything. I didn’t think another pregnancy was going to happen so quickly after, let alone at all. Then a month later I got the best news I could have ever asked for. I was pregnant again.

To look back and remember how scared I was seems so silly now. It feels like such a distant memory now that I’m ten weeks away from meeting our little dude. Sitting here, typing all of this out, feels so good. I just keep coming back to one word that describes how I am feeling, that word is “disbelief”.

Disbelief that I got pregnant so easily (twice on the first try each!!!), that I lost a baby, gained a miracle, grew (and still am growing) a human, and that all of it happened in just a blink of an eye!

But there’s also so many other thoughts and emotions sitting heavy on my heart…

While I most definitely plan on writing a longer blog post on my whole pregnancy journey, I do want to touch on just how different pregnancy is for every woman.

Like I said, I went into both pregnancies fully prepared for what was about to come my way. I read as much as I could, researched a whole lot, and went into this journey feet first. And very quickly I learned pregnancy is nothing like they explain in the books and it certainly is different from your closest group of girlfriends.

I think that is something important to keep in mind when trying to get pregnant/while you are pregnant. Basing your body and experiences off of another woman’s is only going to cause un needed stress and worry.

Believe it or not, pregnancy has taught me some tough lessons on loving myself more, accepting my body, and overall being open to change and new possibilities. So, if there’s one thing you take away from these blog posts, please let it be to remember you are you and no one else.

Okay, I realized just how jumbled this post is and I don’t want to ramble on too much.

Before I end this post, I want to share what I’ve been loving, especially in these later months of pregnancy. However, I will be doing a collaborative post on all the products I used while pregnant after he gets here.

PRODUCTS I AM CURRENTLY LOVING…

Zoe Organics. Specifically, the belly oil and belly butter. I layer these two products on my growing belly, hips, butt, and boobs. The work so well, smell great, and the ingredients are on point!

Dry brush. I have dry brushed way before pregnancy, but it’s become even more of a priority as my skin stretches and grows. I do this after I shower and before I use the body oil and butter.

Every Mother workout app. This app has been such a blessing, especially in the beginning of my pregnancy and right now as I get closer to the end. I briefly mentioned it in my first trimester blog post but it’s a workout app designed for pregnant women. It provides safe, yet effective, workouts for each trimester and even post-partum.

The Bump. This is another app that I use to track my pregnancy and growth of Baby Devine. I find it really helpful to kind of get an overview of how the baby should be progressing as well as what’s “normal” for my body to experience. It also provides daily articles that have a lot of good information in them.

Alright, I’m going to end it here before it gets too long! I will be sure to write a post covering my whole pregnancy experience as well as a post sharing everything I used throughout this journey!

Share your thoughts with me! Comment below or head to my Instagram page (@iamdevonjade)!

 XOXO,

D.J.

My Second Trimester of Pregnancy

Holy moly. I cannot believe I am sitting down and typing out this blog post right now. Aside from taking a long hiatus from blogging while I was traveling, I am officially in my third trimester of pregnancy! My THIRD. What?!

Where has the time gone?

I’ve said this before and I’ll continue to keep saying it until it no longer holds true, I don’t even feel pregnant most days! It’s both a blessing and a curse. It means I don’t have any of the crazy, horrible symptoms but, on the other hand, aside from my growing belly, you can’t even tell I’m pregnant!

Last time I sat down to document my pregnancy I was about 20 weeks, or halfway through this journey. I had also just found out the gender of Baby Devine. This post will be dedicated to my second trimester and all of the fun things pregnancy has brought me up until this point.

So, what’s new on the pregnancy front…

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My Second Trimester of Pregnancy

As I type this post I am just over 28 weeks pregnant, a.k.a. the very beginning of my third trimester.

If I’m being honest, I thought the third trimester didn’t begin until week 30 but I learned I was wrong, lol. The second trimester lasts from week 13 to week 27 and is often called the “honeymoon” phase of pregnancy. It’s called this because it’s when most woman feel their best while pregnant. I can definitely say that statement holds true, at least for me!

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Toward the end of my first trimester (around week 11/12) is when those yucky symptoms started to fade, and I started to feel normal again. By week 13/14 I can say I felt pretty much like my normal self, or whatever normal was becoming for me. The weird food aversions and sensitivities to smells started to lift and my energy came rushing back. Overall, for the first half of my second trimester I didn’t notice much change.

As I got closer to the halfway point I began to get new symptoms and see a lot more changes in my body.

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Around 16 weeks my belly grew over night and it hasn’t stopped since. For those next several weeks I waited anxiously to find out the gender of our baby. By 20 weeks we found out this little peanut inside of me was, in fact, a baby boy! I wrote a blog post all about our gender reveal if you want to go give it a read! By week 20 I was finally getting out of that awkward stage of “are you pregnant or just bloated”, LOL.

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Once we found out the gender of our little dude things started to get more real, however, I still couldn’t believe I was pregnant (and I still can’t)!!! We started shopping and putting together our registry, and of course started narrowing down the list of boy names we liked. Sorry to disappoint you all, we have not picked a name yet. This process is so much harder than I thought it would be! When we do decide on a name I won’t be sharing it until he is out and about. For me, names are very special. I want to make sure we are picking a name we both LOVE, rolls off the tongue, and means something. I also won’t be sharing it because I want to know we are choosing it for him and not other people. Also, we most likely won’t decide until he is born anyways!

(A little side note: please respect this wish of my husband and I of not sharing the name. We don’t mind if you ask but we also won’t tell you and we hope you can understand that. Also, I ask you don’t try and choose our child’s name for us. We know you may have good intentions but when we tell someone we don’t have a name chosen yet, we don’t want to be pulled or pushed to choose a certain name, etc).

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Now that I cleared that dying question everyone seems to have to know the answer to, let’s move on!

Like I said, after about 20 weeks I began developing not so fun symptoms. Symptoms that are very common, but I don’t see anyone talk about so, if you’re grossed out easily exit now.

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One of the first symptoms of my second trimester that I wasn’t expecting was leaky boobs!!! Yes, I said it! My boobs are already leaking. I know this is normal and common but it was one of those things where I read about it but didn’t know many woman that experienced it until postpartum. It’s nothing major and I simply where the nipples pads breastfeeding mamas where to catch any leakage.

Back pain is another fun experience I get to have while pregnant. This started in the middle of my second trimester and comes and goes. It’s nothing too serious but it is a pain in the butt when you’re trying to relax! To help relieve it I use a heating pad, Epsom salt baths, stretching, and making sure I am not resting in the same position for long periods of time.

I have also realized how particular I am now that I am pregnant. There are just some things that HAVE to be a certain way, or it throws my whole day and mood off. For example, I have to have ice cold water with a splash of lemonade or else I won’t drink water. It helps relieve the nasty taste in my mouth I seem to frequently get, and it just makes me drink more water. Another thing I am particular about is my clothing, how it fits, feels, and looks over my bump. I’m also picky about my routine and sleeping arrangements.

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Other fun symptoms include discharge, constipation, cravings, and random aches and pains. I wouldn’t say any of these symptoms are extreme because they come and go. However, they are there enough to notice! And that’s just the truth about pregnancy!

Seeing my belly grow has been the highlight of my second trimester as well as feeling him squirm around inside of me.

Around 25 weeks I would say my belly officially “popped” and I started to get the questions like, “when are you due?” and “how far along are you?”. I also found some maternity clothes I fit into. Other than that, I still pretty much wear my regular clothing in a size bigger!

Other than seeing my belly grow, I can feel him growing inside of me and it’s pretty cool. Just by the way he moves and wiggles around I can tell he’s grown so much. I believe from here on out he will gain around half of a pound until he’s born…crazy!

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Okay, one more thing I wanted to touch on, and maybe I’ll do a whole blog post on this later, is weight gain. I expressed before how I wasn’t gaining much weight and I thought it was “bad”. Obviously, I was wrong and it’s normal for some women. I’m happy to report back that I’ve gained close to ten pounds this whole pregnancy! It’s definitely the heaviest I’ve been but I’m so happy knowing I’m healthy and so is my baby!

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I’m going to end it here because this post ended up being much longer than anticipated. I want to leave you with this-

I want to remind any woman who is reading this that this is MY pregnancy. I am documenting my journey for my future self as well as to be open about this journey with other mamas. These posts are in no way to brag or even complain about my pregnancy. Each woman is different. Each pregnancy is different. Please do not compare yourself or pregnancy journey to me.

I also want to thank you for all of the love and support. I love having this outlet to document my journey and it’s even sweeter that I get to share it with you!

Watch my video breaking down all things second trimester here!

 

Share your thoughts with me! Comment below or head to my Instagram page (@iamdevonjade)!

 XOXO,

D.J.

I’m Halfway Through My Pregnancy! A 20 Week Update

Hey babes! This week I’m coming at ya with a 20-week update! Are you sick of all the pregnancy/baby stuff yet?! Sorry, not sorry! If you want to know what I’ve been up to the last ten weeks since I announced the big news, keep on reading!

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I’m Halfway Through My Pregnancy!

A 20 Week Update

As of Friday, September 21st, I am officially 20-weeks pregnant, aka HALF WAY through my pregnancy!!! Whaaa?! To me that is absolutely crazy! Most days it doesn’t even feel like I’m pregnant and it hasn’t hit me yet that I’m growing a human inside of me! I’m hoping now that I know the gender things will start to feel more real. If you haven’t heard, we are having a sweet little boy! Check out the blog post and video I did for our gender reveal!

Also, make sure to check out the video for my 20-week update!

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Pregnancy is so weird, but so cool. It’s such a wonderful experience and the collection of emotions you feel are just insane. At this point in my pregnancy I can say I am definitely one of those women who love being pregnant. Knowing that I am halfway through this journey has definitely made things feel a little more real, however, at the same time I feel like I have a million more weeks to go!

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So, how have I been feeling? What have I been up to? And what are some pregnancy things I am loving? Let me tell you!

As I shared in my first trimester blog post (pt. I) and pt. II, I was lucky enough to have a pretty easy start to this pregnancy. By end of week 11 I slowly started to gain my energy back and feel normal again, or at least my new normal. It wasn’t about until a few weeks into my second trimester I started to feel 100% like myself and got back into somewhat of a routine. I’ve started working out every day again which feels amazing. My appetite is pretty normal and I’m not craving anything too crazy. Overall, I feel great!

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For my workouts, I started following the prenatal program by Every Mother. They are workouts made specifically for pregnant women that help keep you in shape, prepare you for labor, and prevent diastasis recti from happening (splitting of your abdominal wall). I really like this program because it is safely teaching me how to work out while pregnant, it’s inexpensive, and everything is on an app! The workouts are also short and sweet, and it has programs for each trimester, including post-partum. I am currently alternating these workouts with my own. I also walk for thirty minutes or more a day. Getting in 10,000 steps a day has helped me out a lot!

Like I said, my cravings haven’t been all that crazy. This pregnancy has allowed me to digest dairy which is awesome. I try to eat cheese daily (as long as it doesn’t bug me) to get some calcium and vitamin D in. I’ve also been loving ice cream, too! I hope this sticks around once baby comes!

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One thing that I have fallen out of is my usual morning routine of meditating and journaling. Before I even got pregnant I told myself I would continue my practice, especially journaling, to help better deal with any pregnancy symptoms and build a deeper connection with my baby. However, that changed when the first trimester hit. Sleeping in and naps were my priority over meditation, I’m not going to lie. And when you’re extremely tired and feel like shit, the last thing you want to do is sit in stillness with your eyes closed. Who knows, maybe that would have helped ease those symptoms a little more, but I don’t like to force anything that isn’t natural. Also, I made a promise to myself to live in the moment as much as I can and to cherish every second of pregnancy. I’m still working on finding that flow and routine again, and I hope to re-find it sooner rather than later, but I’m also enjoying what is NOW.

Some things that I’ve been loving this pregnancy have been feeling and seeing my body grow and change. Whether its random symptoms I experience or the actual stretching of my growing belly, it is all so amazing to me. And don’t let me forget feeling the baby move! I started feeling him squirm around in there at 15 weeks, but it didn’t feel like much until about 18 or 19 weeks. Now I am at my half way mark and can’t imagine what it’ll feel like in another 10 weeks from now! Also, seeing him in the ultrasound was completely mind blowing! It really put it in perspective that I am growing a human inside of me, yet I was still in disbelief.

As for supplements and vitamins I am taking I plan on doing a post separately on all of that so stay tuned! Right now I am just focused on drinking water, taking my prenatal, and eating all the nourishing foods!

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Share your thoughts with me! Comment below or head to my Instagram page (@iamdevonjade)!

XOXO,

D.J.

Baby Devine’s Big Gender Reveal!

I’M GOING TO BE A BOY MOM!!! By now you all probably know this exciting news as I continuously posted about it non-stop this last week. But if you got lost in cyber space, over the weekend we found out Baby Devine is a BOY! How freaking exciting?!?!

This blog post I am going into a little more detail about why we chose to do a gender reveal, how we planned it, and of course, all about our sweet baby boy making his grand reveal!

And don’t forget to watch the YouTube video I made sharing all about our reveal 💙 Find it here.

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Baby Devine’s Big Gender Reveal!

For starters, I would just like to mention how I knew I was having a boy ever since I found out we were pregnant. Call it a good guess or mother’s intuition but I just had this strong feeling and I was right!

Like I have mentioned many times before, Mark or I didn’t care if Baby Devine was a girl or boy so finding out the news was soooo exciting for us. We are still over the moon happy and floating on Cloud 9! Cue a shopping spree because this mama is ready to shop and buy all the fun boy things!

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So, what made me do a gender reveal and how did it exactly work?

In the beginning I had no interest in doing a gender reveal because I thought it would be too much and I didn’t want that added stress. We originally planned on finding out at our ultrasound and then doing a cute little photoshoot to publicly announce his reveal. But, long story short, the more we thought about it the more we decided to go “all in” for our first pregnancy. I didn’t want to regret not documenting this exciting moment and at the end of the day I knew it would be a blast to celebrate the news with all of our friends and family.

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We decided to have our reveal at the local coffee shop we go to every Saturday for brunch, Electric City Coffee & Bistro. Not only do we love the food and atmosphere there, but the staff is amazing and some we consider our close friends. Choosing the place to do it at was easy. We got to reserve the back portion of the building which was great and although we didn’t have the place to ourselves it still felt very private. The day of our ultrasound we went to Electric City Coffee and hand delivered the results. The gender of our baby was sealed away in an envelope and we were dying to know.

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The day of our reveal everyone got to order brunch and just hang out which was so awesome because it truly represented the “feel” we were going for that day. For the reveal the chefs at ECC baked the most enormous gluten free cake in the world. It was super sweet and of course delicious! When it was time to cut the cake, we facetimed our families so they could see the reveal live which was very special. As you can see in the pictures, it was a simple vanilla cake, but they made it so unique by adding a blue strip of icing to reveal our sweet boy. My favorite part were the blueberries in the middle! How creative, right?!

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Overall, through the excitement and anxiousness, it was worth it and I would do it all over again if I could. Not only did we have a blast, but we are so happy we got to share this moment with friends and family, plus Electric City Coffee did a fabulous job. We can’t thank them enough. And we definitely cannot thank all of you enough for the love and support we received and continue to receive daily.

Share your thoughts with me! Comment below or head to my Instagram page (@iamdevonjade)!

XOXO,

D.J.

Can You Guess Baby Devine’s Gender?! Guessing the gender off of old wives tales

Hey babes! Welcome back to yet again another post in my pregnancy journey series. I am trying really hard not to go pregnancy/baby overload on you, but I have so much I want to share and talk about! I do have some more blog posts planned that are not pregnancy related so soon there will be a pause in baby talk…promise!

One of my sweet friends gave me the idea to create a blog post where I take a few old wives tales and try to guess the gender of Baby Devine. I thought that would be such a fun post to do so that is what today’s post is all about!

I know that these are just old wives tales and there is no proof that they are actually going to be true. I also do not prefer one gender over the other. I thought this would be a fun post to do and share prior to finding out the gender next week!

Can You Guess Baby Devine’s Gender?

Heart beat is above 140 bpm it’s a girl, anything below is a boy.

The first two times the baby’s heartbeat was around 166-168 bpm which would indicate a girl. However, the previous heartrate at our last appointment was 147 which would still indicate a girl but is still pretty low (it does lower as the baby gets bigger).

If your skin is glowing and your hair looks it’s straight out of Pantene commercial you’re having a boy, if your hair and skin has been anything but glowing, you’re having a girl.

They say girl’s steal the mom’s looks and I totally believe that. I have been breaking out like crazy this pregnancy, not to mention my hair has not changed one bit.

If you’re carrying low, it’s a boy, if you’re carrying high it’s a girl.

It’s still hard to tell at this point as I’m showing but not all that much. Going off of my current bump though, I’m carrying low.

Craving sweet, it’s a girl, craving salty it’s a boy.

To be honest, I’m craving everything because I’m pregnant, but I crave more sweet things than I do salty.

If you’re carrying most of your weight out front you’re having a boy, if you’re carrying your weight all around, you’re probably having a girl.

Like I said, it’s hard to tell exactly how I am carrying as I am still pretty small at the moment but if I were to guess I would say I’m carrying all out front.

Cold feet mean a boy is on the way, warm feet or no change expect a girl.

My feet are ALWAYS cold, even when I’m not pregnant.

If you have severe morning sickness you are having a girl. They say girls give their mom’s trouble right from the start.

As I mentioned in my previous two posts, I didn’t have much morning sickness, just a little nausea here and there.

If your spouse gains weight, it’s a girl.

Mark hasn’t gained any weight but neither have I so who knows the truth behind this, lol.

If you get severe headaches you’re having a boy, no real headaches it’s a girl.

I’ve had at least three migraines this pregnancy and I NEVER get them. However, it’s also a part of pregnancy.

If you naturally fall asleep on your left side, it’s a boy.

I can only fall asleep lying on my left side! Again, this was the only way I could sleep pre-pregnancy too.

Okay, that’s it for now! There are plenty more wives tales to guess but I chose the most common ones and went from there.

The verdict based off of these old wives tales: BOY!!!

Stay tuned to find out if this gender prediction was correct!

Share your thoughts with me! Comment below or head to my Instagram page (@iamdevonjade)!

XOXO,

D.J.

My First Trimester of Pregnancy: Part II

Hey babes! This post is Part II of “My First Trimester of Pregnancy”. If you aren’t caught up on Part I, check it out right here!

In this post I am going to finish sharing my first trimester experiences and some challenges I faced. As always, I want to thank you for following along on this crazy journey of mine!

My First Trimester of Pregnancy: Part II

If you’ve read my previous blog post, I shared the many symptoms I experienced in the first three months of my pregnancy. I am so grateful to of had a pretty easy first trimester, however it wasn’t all rainbows and unicorns.

Aside from the little bit of nausea and the many food aversions, I experienced so much bloat! No matter what I ate I always felt heavy and bloated. I decided to wait until Part II to share this symptom because it wasn’t a little bit of bloating here and there. It was a constant thing and I looked way more pregnant than I actually was. Even though I knew it was a symptom of pregnancy, it really started to mess with my mind and how I viewed my body.

I think one thing us women don’t talk enough about is body shaming during pregnancy. Our bodies are going through these crazy changes at a rapid pace and it can shake your mindset. Coming from a past of disorder thinking and over working my body, this part of pregnancy was very hard for me to get used to.

I can say the extreme bloating does pass, or at least it has for me, and my mindset is much better. Again, I wanted to touch on this topic because it often seems to be overlooked. If you are going through something similar, know that just like most things, it will pass. After all, you’re growing a human inside of you! Allow yourself to breathe and enjoy this precious time.

Like I’ve said a few times, I like to think I was blessed with an easy first trimester. Or easy to me because I wasn’t hunched over the toilet. However, around 4 weeks of pregnancy I was in the Emergency Room waiting for what I thought would be another let down but at the same time holding onto to all the hope I had.

It all started one Saturday morning when we were at brunch. I had gotten up to go to the bathroom and when I looked down I saw a little bit of blood. If you’re familiar with pregnancy, then you know some light bleeding in the beginning can be very normal. Alarmed at what I saw, I automatically flashed back to when I had my miscarriage. This was like déjà vu. Instead of dwelling on the could be’s and what if’s, I took a road trip with my friend and put it out of my head.

Moving onto later that night I decided to call the on-call doctor just in case. She told me exactly what I thought she would, don’t worry but call back if it continues or gets worse. I went to sleep that night and the next three days went as normal.

Soon it was Wednesday morning and I was at work, feeling pretty good. I stepped away from my desk to go to the bathroom and when I looked down there it was again, the bleeding. Only this time it was much worse. I immediately started crying because the amount of blood I saw made me believe it was in fact another miscarriage. I called my husband and we debated whether or not I should go to the ER (if it was a miscarriage there is nothing they can do so it would be a wasted trip if that was the case). However, something in me was saying “GO”! So, I picked up my husband and we went to the ER.

Still crying, knowing the news I was most likely going to get, I spoke with several doctors who consoled me with stories of similar situations. Another miscarriage? Are you kidding me? But this time it was different.

Unlike when I had my miscarriage, I didn’t have any cramping or pain, just heavy bleeding. For whatever reason, I had a lot of hope, that this wasn’t what we thought it was going to be. Mark told me not to get my hopes up but I just knew. I knew everything would be okay.

I went in for an ultrasound and some more tests. I waited and waiting some more. Than the doctor came back in and said “did she show you your baby?” I replied back with “What??? NO?!”. She asked me for my phone and said she would be right back. When she came back she was showing me pictures of my ultrasound, pointing at a tiny white speck. That tiny white speck was our BABY! This was our first time seeing our little peanut and although I was SO happy the baby was okay, I still wondered why I was bleeding.

The doctor went on to tell me I had hemorrhage in my uterus that wasn’t affecting me or the baby (THANK GOODNESS). So, what did that mean? Apparently, hemorrhages are actually really common and caused by anything- stretching the wrong way, lifting something, coughing, etc. My only restrictions were to lay low for the next week and don’t do anything more than walking. It seems like a lot considering I am an active individual but it being my first trimester made it pretty easy to relax.

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I shared this in Part I but this was the ultrasound the doctor showed. That tiny white speck is our little peanut! You can also see my hemorrhage in this but it is very hard to explain where to look/where it is.

I would say I bled on and off for about two weeks. I had ultrasounds every week for about a month to check on the hemorrhage and baby of course. It was a special treat to get to see our little babe weekly for a while, definitely missing that now lol.

Looking back, it doesn’t seem all that scary, even though in the moment I was freaking out. I didn’t even know hemorrhages were even a thing, or that common, in pregnancies. Here I was having one though. It was definitely a reminder to slow down and don’t try to do it all- I am growing a human.

I hope you enjoyed reading all about my first trimester because it was fun to write it all down and share it with you! I’ll be sure to keep you updated on Instagram and with more posts in the future! As always, if you have any questions don’t hesitate to shoot me a message!

Share your thoughts with me! Comment below or head to my Instagram page

(@iamdevonjade)!

XOXO,

D.J.

My First Trimester of Pregnancy: Part I

This post is long overdue as I am officially in my seventeenth week of pregnancy. I had all the intentions to sit down and write it out for you guys but these last several months have been so spontaneous. I feel like I am finally starting to get into my routine again and find my new normal. I’ve been saying that for weeks now, I know, but each week I am getting closer and closer to sorting out these constant life changes. If you have no idea about the craziness my life has been, you can read all about it here in my previous blog post.

Now let’s get chatting! By now you know I am pregnant with mine and my husband’s first baby! Each day presents itself with a new set of emotions and challenges and I’ve been (mostly) loving this rollercoaster of a ride!

I decided to do a blog series (as well as video series via YouTube and IGTV) to help document my pregnancy. I believe pregnancy is a big deal, especially your first, so I want to remember everything as much as I can. I also want to have these glimpses into the past when my children are all grown up. If you haven’t read the first post of my pregnancy series, you can find that post right here.

Like I said, this post is long overdue as I am almost halfway through my entire pregnancy! However, I wanted to make sure I touched on the first precious moments of my journey and answer all the questions I’ve received.

I want to preface this post with this…

Every pregnancy is different. Every woman is different. Please do not take this post and compare it you those you know or yourself. This is simply my own personal experience that I decided to share. As always, I hope you can take this post and use it as inspiration.

My First Trimester of Pregnancy: Part I

My first trimester was nothing like I expected it to be. However, I was fully prepared for the worst, although hoping for the best. I like to think I was somewhere stuck right in the middle.

When you hear the word “pregnancy” you think of morning sickness right away. And well, that’s usually what’s expected! I know I sure expected it. Like I said, I was prepared. I was taking my prenatal and a b6 vitamin well before I knew I was pregnant. I had the house stocked with crackers, ginger tea, ginger candy, and basically anything else that was said to alleviate morning sickness.

I’m happy to report back and say my first trimester of pregnancy was a breeze compared to the average woman. And I am SO GRATEFUL. So so soooo grateful.

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This was Memorial Day weekend- I had NO idea I was pregnant. Especially because I had just had a miscarriage April 30th.

If you know me, you know I have an irrational fear of vomit. I hate throwing up and I hate when other people throw up. So, I was going to do anything to prevent it. I like to think my healthy diet and lifestyle pre-pregnancy had a lot to do with how well my first trimester went. I also like to think I prepared my body with b6 vitamins which is what the doctor usually prescribes to women that do suffer from nausea. (Pregnancy depletes the body of b6 which is one of the main causes of morning sickness, along with the drastic hormonal changes occurring in the body. So, taking a b6 supplement pre-pregnancy made sure my body wasn’t as depleted. ASK YOUR DOCOTOR BEFORE TAKING ANY ADDITONAL MEDICATION OR SUPPLEMENTS). While I like to think my lifestyle choices blessed me with an easy first trimester, I truly believe I was one of the lucky ones. Beginner’s luck if you will, lol.

Don’t get me wrong though. I had my fair share or symptoms. Although I didn’t have extreme nausea or vomiting, I did experience some nausea. There really wasn’t a specific time of day it would hit, it was mainly all day. It wasn’t like I was running toward the toilet either. It was more of a full belly type of feeling and loss of appetite. Any nausea I did have though was usually treated using ginger tea with lemon as well as my essential oils. Overall, I could function fine on a day to day basis.

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Our very first ultrasound. This was a scary and nerve wracking one as it wasn’t our 8 week appt. I had severe bleeding and was in the ER. I thought I was having a miscarriage again but that tiny white speck is our baby!!! (More on this part of the journey later).

I may have not been running to the bathroom to stick my head in the toilet, but I did have A LOT of food aversions. Food aversions are funny. Like everything in pregnancy, they vary from woman to woman. I kind of shrugged them off like “yeah, I doubt I will have any.” HA! For me, I pretty much lived off of carbs and sugar. Yup, real refined cane sugar. Shocker, I know. I hated most protein, all veggies, and almost all of my go to snacks. Coffee and matcha were another aversion, so I stuck to black tea. I basically ate whatever I was craving at the time. I would say the first trimester is the most expensive because everything in your fridge you hate, and you don’t know what you want until you want it. As much as I wanted to feed my body all of my go-to staples, I just couldn’t stomach it. I ate what I wanted for a little while, knowing my body would always tell me what I need. More on this later.

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The day after we found out we were pregnant!

Aside from the aversions, sensitivity to smells were another game changer for me. While most gross smelling scents that would normally bother me, didn’t, everything else did. For example, the one smell that would actually make me dry heave was the refrigerator. No matter how many times we cleaned it or what food was kept in there, I couldn’t open it without gagging. It got so bad that one day my husband opened it up like three times in ten minutes that I just broke down in tears, bawling my eyes out. Yup, pregnancy hormones.

One of the first signs of pregnancy, other than the obvious positive test result, was exhaustion. I’m not talking about the kind where you wake up early and have a long day. I’m talking about the kind where it feels like you’ve stayed up for a week straight, running in circles, all while coming down with the flu. Exhaustion during pregnancy is seriously no joke. I would wake up after a good night’s sleep and be tired by ten 10 a.m. I was taking naps every day and couldn’t be out longer than a few hours at most. This showed a lot on my Instagram and blog as I didn’t post for almost a good two months. I praise all of the women who work full time and/or have children already- you are killing it.

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More ultrasound pictures! I was about 6 weeks here, give or take.

I’m going to end it here as this post is way longer than I thought it would be. I will continue part two of my first trimester later this week. Thank you for reading and following along on my journey!

 

Share your thoughts with me! Comment below or head to my Instagram page (@iamdevonjade)!

XOXO,

D.J.

Life Update: Pregnancy, Promotions, and End of Summer Adventures (+ what I’ve been up to)

Hi babes! I am happy to be finally sharing another blog post with you all! As you can probably tell, life has been absolutely crazy in my neck of the woods and I’ve just been really enjoying soaking it all in. However, I have also been neglecting my blog and I truly miss writing posts and sharing them with all of YOU! I am re-dedicating myself to blogging and will be sharing a new blog post every week starting the month of September. But, before I do that I thought I would get you up to speed at where I’ve been and what’s happening in my world.

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First and foremost, if you haven’t heard, I am pregnant!!! I shared this amazing news about six weeks ago and have been pretty lazy at updating you guys since then, lol. I had planned on making my next post be all about my first trimester, but I feel like I’ve been so inconsistent that breaking up my pregnancy posts with a life update would be better, so, here we are! If me being pregnant is brand new news to you, I wrote all about it here. In this first pregnancy blog post I answered the most commonly asked questions and shared my thoughts on pregnancy thus far! I also have a short IGTV video in conjunction with the post and will continue filming videos for you guys along the way (including more detailed videos via YouTube). Up next on the blog regarding my pregnancy journey, you will get to read all about my first trimester, complications I experienced, and my miscarriage story (plus our gender reveal!!!). As you can tell I have a lot in the works and cannot wait to share it with everyone!

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Throughout the crazy wild journey of pregnancy life has also been throwing us more great things our way and I couldn’t be more grateful. The same week we announced our pregnancy, my husband, Mark, got promoted. For those of you who don’t know he is in the Air Force and has been waiting for this big promotion for quite a while! I couldn’t be prouder of him and his career goals!

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If all of that excitement wasn’t enough, we also bought a new car AND a puppy! Call us freaking crazy but July (and August) were so good to us. We knew we were going to need a new car once baby came so we started shopping around for my new mom car. We stumbled upon a brand-new beautiful Jeep Cherokee. For Mark and I this is huge as it is our very first NEW car. I named her Chloe and she’s been the dream car I’ve always wanted.

Now, moving onto the puppy situation. A lot of you thought I was absolutely insane for getting a puppy while pregnant. Maybe I am little, but he is SO worth it. We (okay, just me really, lol) have been looking to get a second pup so our German Shepard, Cheyenne, wouldn’t be bored and alone. Charlie kind of just popped out of thin air and I put my trust in the universe that this was the dog I’ve been searching for. Charlie is a boxer/pitbull/mastiff mix and an absolute bundle of joy. Don’t get me wrong, puppies are a lot of work, but he makes me the happiest fur mama ever.

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In the beginning of August, I then had one of my best friends from back home visit me in Montana. She was here for a short time, but we managed to do a lot while she was in town. I got to take her to Glacier National Park and despite the wildfires and excessive heat, we had a great time. Having a familiar face in Montana was very refreshing.

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Last, but not least, as of more recently, Mark re-enlisted into the Air Force for another five years. This is another big step in his career and I was so honored to be there when he swore in. I know how much he loves his career and serving others so I cannot wait to see what he will do in these next several years (and where we will go after here!!!).

Over time I have learned life is always going to be crazy. It is a thought that often pops into my head and I am slowly learning to accept it. I’m learning to roll with the punches and go with ebbs and flows of life. While some days I wish for a “break” or a lull in the chaos, I am reminded just how grateful I am for this life I live. And I’m even more grateful that I get to share it with all of you.

If you managed to read all the way through this post, thank you. I have a lot coming in the next few weeks and it just feels really good to be getting back on track.

 

Share your thoughts with me! Comment below or head to my Instagram page (@iamdevonjade)!

XOXO,

D.J.